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so! i am back home in calcutta and outfit posts are thin on the ground. there also have been quite a few other changes on the blog since i last posted. not being in the uk means that the places where i can photograph my outfits are incredibly limited and so i have to resort to the old club lawn which i used before i moved to york last october. i will however try and maintain a level of interest in the pictorial quality on this blog by putting up some of my photography - something rarely seen here. for those of you who didn’t know, i am a photographer as well as all the other things, although because of my ex taking all the photos for the blog, my work was never showcased. oh, and that’s another thing. david and i broke up early this month, which means that i am now on the lookout for a photographer all the time. thankfully i have awesome friends who are all willing to help out, even though photography is not their forte. i never know how to announce something like this publicly since i keep my real life separate from my blog. but at the same time i would mention my ex a lot on here, so i think i owe my readers an explanation as to why my future posts will be david (and his photography) free. 

we first tried to take these photos at prinsep ghat where we were bitten by mosquitoes and hassled by people. we also got one single good shot out of it. we decided to redo it again today, this time on the trusty lawns, after which we went for overpriced coffee and lovely haleem. 

this vintage bag is actually a converted krill basket! look, it even has a hole on top for the fish.

since i am back home to get my psych meds reviewed, i don’t really have much to do. i am spending the time going out with one of my friends and taking a lot of narcissistic photos! here are some non narcissistic ones we took at victoria memorial. 

photographic interlude being over now, back to the narcissism and fashuns!

dress - pearl lowe for peacocks

basket bag - vintage via etsy

shoes -asos

all photos by the lovely diviani. 

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the print on these shorts reminds me of the japanese prints that the impressionists were so influenced by, especially hokusai’s celebrated the great wave. looking at it reminds me of a quote from van gogh, one of the impressionist painters most influenced by japan (although it was hiroshige he was chiefly influenced by) in one of his letters to his brother. speaking of the quality of the light in the south of france (where he produced some of his greatest works) he said “the weather here remains fine, and if it was always like this, it would be better than a painter’s paradise, it would be absolute japan[.]” the phrase ‘absolute japan’ is something that really struck me, mostly for the orientalist assumptions contained in it. van gogh here is trying to distill an ‘essence’ of japan, with certain characteristics (in this case, of the weather and quality of light) being marked as japanese and japan being reduced to an entity being contained by these markers. at the same time, there is something incredibly poetic about the phrase ‘absolute japan’. it is odd that such a process of orientalisation should lead to a phrase of such remarkable poetry but then that is the kind of juxtaposition of odds us postcolonialists are always working with. 

funnily enough, in keeping with the theme we decided to go have sushi just before the shoot! mm, raw fish :) 

i can never tie bows, so david did this one for me! i think he did a really good job!

i love the looping on the edges of this coat. it’s a very old one from anthropologie, and i bought it to replace a navy vintage jacket which i had and outgrew. i think i have grown to love this one more!

litel fuzzlets! i think by now, david can have a portfolio of ducks and duck like creatures alone!

crop top -topshop

jacket -anthropologie (elevenses)

shorts -asos

brogues -asos

boater -john lewis

today we tried out a different choice of location -midsummer common! although i miss the cows that were grazing there a month or so ago, it still is a lovely place.

the playsuit is from hobbs and the first thing i own by them. i quite simply love their aesthetic and it’s a pity that their prices are so often out of my wee student budget. i decided to keep it simple with my new boater from john lewis and my trusty clogs.

it rained for a bit while we were taking photos.

and then there was this adorable creature!

and people rowing.

playsuit - nw3 by hobbs via john lewis

boater - john lewis

clogs -lotta from stockholm clogs

satchel -asos

this was probably our most truncated shoot till date, thanks to the fact that it started raining halfway through! i was glad of my new old trench, a brilliant find from brighton for only £5! i had been looking for a classic trench for a very long time and i even used to have one back in my dieting days when i was smaller than i am now. it was a beautiful deadstock vintage number in the brightest parrot green which i never got to wear because it was always too small for me! in the end, i gave it to my sister last year before moving here. when i spotted this coat hanging on the £5 rack, i was immediately drawn to it and imagine my delight when it fit me like it was made for me! i had been eyeing a similar trench at topshop which retailed at about £85 so this was a bargain indeed. i also picked up this awesome 70s shirt which i plan to wear sometime soon, as well as a 50s style 80s jumpsuit with the most gorgeous fit. 

aaand this is where it started raining and my top got mussed up by the wind :/ about this i had no idea so all the photos from this point on feature extreme dishevelledness. 

i want to live in a houseboat like this!

in the end we sheltered under the bridge and took a few last photos.

scalloped crop top - topshop

trench - to be worn again vintage, brighton

skirt -asos

hat -vintage

t-straps - biviel

bag -primark

on saturday i went to brighton for big beach bums, a blogger meetup, as i mentioned in my last post. much fun was had that day by us all and i hope we can do it again sometime in the future! here are some photos from the day. not very many since we were pretty much busy thrifting throughout the day!

l to r - alex, rebecca, kirsty, claire, nadia.

kirsty, who organized the expedition!

on the way we passed some incredible graffitti!

fagged out from thrifting, we went to get some coffee!

then we went to wetherspoon to meet up with our partners!

finally, david and i went to the beach to take some outfit photos and we called it a day.

yesterday, i travelled to brighton for bigbeachbums, a blogger meetup oganized by kirsty wherein we went thifting in brighton’s vintage heaven and had a lovely time! it’s a pity more people could not make it but it was great meeting claire and rebecca and nadia, and ofcourse kirsty! i thrifted a gem of a trench for £5, among other things, but that was definitely the bargain of the day! pictures from the day are due soon, but in the meantime, this is what i wore. my boyfriend came along with me and so while everyone caught up at a wetherspoons, we decided to hit the beach and take some photos. it was hella windy though, and i was feeling pretty rough from not having slept in a day and having shopped all day long! so do excuse me if i look a little bleary eyed :/

the cutout at the back hits me excatly where my love handles are but i don’t mind!

by the way, this is an actual schoolgirls’ hat! i was looking for something vintage-y in this style but with no luck thanks to my humungous head, but then i chanced across john lewis’s school hats section and it is perfect! for a heads up (excuse the pun!) for those with large heads and looking for vintage-y schoolgirl-y hats, the largest size fits my 23” head perfectly!

dress - motel via asos

velvet bow brooch -asos

coat -primark

hat -john lewis

petticoat -skirt from h&m

shoes -biviel

This outfit consists of two sorely neglected items in my wardrobe which have been sitting there since last summer when i bought them. i fell in love with the idea of crop tops last year but it wasn’t until now that i actually have worn one! again, most people who deal out ‘fashion advice’ would strongly suggest against fat girls wearing crop tops but like i have said before, i care very little about such things. so, fat girl belly love! i have also been looking for the perfect chambray shirt for a while now (and ending up with nothing :(  ) so while i’m on the hunt this sweet little crop top will do very well indeed! the skirt is from alice takes a trip, one of my favourite indie boutiques. i am constantly in love with everything they do! i love the rich velvet on this one and the tapestry print. 

the sunnies are from new look. now, sunglasses are something i have never ever worn in my life, but i somehow fell in love with this pair when i saw them in the shop. i’m still now sure how i feel about them, so they might need a few more wears before i come to a conclusion!

buttercups! i held one up to my chin and indeed it did turn yellow. well, yes, i have a prodigious fondness for butter. it makes everything taste so much nicer!

crop top - dr. denim via ASOS

skirt -alice takes a trip

bag -primark

clog sandals -office

sunglasses -new look

this outfit is really built around the dress, it has such a sailor girl vibe to it! us fatties are often told to avoid stripes but i personally have never cared for such fashion ‘rules’, so yay! fat girl in stripes points to meee :D i should really have worn red lippy with it but i was visiting my boyfriend at cambridge and i didn’t have all my makeup with me. 

posing in front of the geralds. i didn’t know what these flowers were called so i asked my boyfriend what they were. he didn’t know as well, so he told me they are called ‘gerald’ and the name stuck! 

geralds!

we must have taken about 30 photos of me blowing on dandelions to get this shot! 

the shoes are from asos and i love the little-girl sandal look they have. unfortunately they were out of the 8 at the time, so these are in a 7. still, being leather, they will stretch out in time. 

i love they way my hair has been curling since i stopped blowdrying it. 

ducklets!

mummy ducks watching litel ducklets. 

the man behind the camera. i don’t usually post pictures of my boyfriend in my outfit posts, but i love this photo of him i took sitting among the flowers, and also because of shit that’s been going on in my personal life, i am incredibly emotional tonight and just wanted to say that this is the person who holds me together when things are bad. i love you, david. <3 

we then took off our shoes and walked barefoot in the grass. it was cold and wet and springy from the recent rain and it felt lovelier than i can describe in words. 

dress- vintage marks and sparks

hat -vintage

satchel -the cambridge satchel co.

brooch -vintage

belt -primark

shoes -asos

i have been rather lax about outfit posts the last few months - in my defence, i went back to india for a while and did not have anyone to do outfit shoots with. however, not in my defence is the fact that my sister, who is a brilliant photographer, wanted to do a shoot with me but i was too lazy. so yes, in the end, the truth is that i have been a lazy little thing. 

this was really a rather impromptu little shoot. i was wearing a different skirt when i went out, and then i went into primark and got this. so my boyfriend and i decided to take some photos!

i love how the skirt flares. i would ideally like to wear it with a petticoat. 

we didn’t know what these flowers are called but they looked like the pinky white flowers we call the geralds so we called these the geraldines!

i used the belt from the skirt as a hair tie! my hair is getting a bit longer now. soon i’ll be able to have a bob again!

we took photos of bees on flowers!

top - topshop

skirt - primark 

belt -primark

brogues -asos